I have been fascinated with film photography for a while now. The dreamy look and whimsical feel that film can give you, is just so good. All those bright, hazy, glowing images, bokeh-ed out and a little blurry. It's just so darn beautiful. I've just always been too scared to try it. I always felt film was for the big dogs. You know, the super professionals who have been in the business for a long time and know what they're doing. It doesn't help that I have an unhealthy, completely unrealistic desire to be perfect at everything, even as a beginner.
It wasn't until I met another photographer in Vienna, that ever so graciously allowed me to use her camera, a vintage Canon AE-1 35mm. This kind human was even generous enough to impart all of her film knowledge on me. We walked around Vienna, taking in all of the picture perfect, beauty of the city. But I was so nervous, committing to my first shot. 'What if I didn't expose it correctly? What if the image comes out blurry? I won't know that I'm making a mistake until I get it developed and then it's too late! I could ruin roll after roll of film without knowing it.'
Then the other part of my silly, squishy brain thought, "JUST SHUT UP MIA! YOU ARE SO ANNOYING SOMETIMES. DO IT!" So I snapped my first shot of a red rose in Volksgarten and continued on with my photo walk. And that was all there was to it. It was such an anticlimactic moment for my fears and anxieties. But such a huge moment for my soul!
I mean, honestly, how many times do we get stuck in our head, convincing ourselves that we are failing at life before we even do anything? How many experiences could we have accomplished if we just believed that we are already capable or that it's okay, and even good to fail? Folks this is a lie from the enemy to destroy and kill the plan God has designed for us. A lie I know I fall victim to more than once a day and a lie I'm done listening to! And you should be too.
Life is too short on earth for all this bologna (I wanted to cuss here, but I changed my mind and went with bologna). I may be preaching to the choir, or straight to your heart or merely to my own. But we have to stop living in fear and just take the shot- pun very much intended.
A lot of these came out a bit too yellow for my liking, the exposure is off in a lot of them, some are out of focus, some too grainy and the first 10 pictures that I took didn't even get developed because I failed at removing the film properly BUT I still got some pretty little shots that I'm proud of and I partially conquered my fear of falling. So BOOM! Suck it fears!
Now go try something you're afraid of doing. Something that little nagging voice says, you can't do. Something you feel completely incapable of doing. I promise, even when you fail, it will make you feel alive and well, stronger and better for even trying.